Somethings I wanted the E & A to be part of

Now I may look at adoption different than others but we are all entitled to our way of thinking about things. With that being said I wanted this pregnancy to be as if it were their own as much as possible. Meaning I wanted them to be at doctors visits when possible, and be there for the birth. Plus I felt that it brought us closer as parents than if I would have excluded them from these important moments of their child's beginning. I was a upset when the agency got the ultra sound days mixed up and they missed it and it was their chance to see their baby. And when E couldn't come to a visit to hear the heart beat I taped it and mailed it to him. They did make it to a few Dr. visits but the distance had a role in that. I talked to A online just about daily and if I didn't it felt strange. I wanted to tell her as much as I could about who I was and where I had come from so she would know where her baby came from. There were laughs and tears shared over those months. If was great getting to know both of them. Eventually we moved from the computer to the phone. I had so much I needed to tell them and such a short time.