Visits with my son

Its almost like Christmas but better when I see my son. That means I get to hold him and see him smile up at me. I remember the first visit after the hospital it was actually a week I think after he went home with his parents and we met at a Starbucks. No one else seemed to matter but him he was so tiny in his car seat. He was just sleeping away ( The time when he had his days and nights mixed up). I took him out of his car seat almost afraid to even touch him as if he may break. I almost felt like a first time mom. But I just looked at him and I thought about how amazing he was.
The second time I got to see him was in December and now mind you I had only seen pictures of him up until the visit. Now yes a picture can be worth a million words, but nothing could have ever done justice for the way he looked sleeping on their hotel bed when I got there. I picked him up and he bigger than the last time I had my eyes on him. I just wanted to hold him and not put him down. The part that hit the heart was when he cried it wasn't me that he wanted to sooth his worries but his parents. After a few minutes of holding him and he started to open his eyes and he looked up at me as if he knew who I was all along. I am sure it was my voice he remembered. Through out the visit I think the only time I put him down was when he got in his car seat on the way to dinner. His little gins meant the world to me. I took them all in.
Oh now the third visit was a blast I got to see him on his own turf. When I got there he was sitting up playing with is toys on the floor. Wow can you believe it he was sitting up all by him self. I walked over to him to say hi and he just had the biggest grin ever. It was the toothless grin. We played all afternoon. I got to try and rock him to sleep, but he was not having a nap. He stayed up all day as if he to were trying to take all of us in before we would be gone for a few more months.
A few weeks ago I got to see him again. Time has gone by so fast. He went from sitting to now being mobile and is crawling all over the place and well the army crawl anyhow. Once again I just held him and not wanting to put him down. I some how try to make up for not holding him. The most amazing part was that when he got sleepy I rubbed his back and he fell asleep. Which was the first time I had done that since we were in the hospital together.
I will always treasure each visit. Its hard to beleive the next time I see him he will be a year old.

Blog Blocked

So the other day I get ready to check another moms blog and then write something that I had been thinking about at work...... Well wouldn't you know my work blocked both mine and hers. Now whats so funny about this is that there are a few other blogs that I had in my favorites which I would read every now and than but they didn't block them. If they only knew how helpful blogging can be.