Finals

So this week I have been taking finals. Boy let me tell you I can't wait for this quarter to be over and done with. It has been a rocky one which I am slowly pulling a head I hope. Next time I am goign to manage my time better. Becasue I have two months to figure it out hopw to function with work school and two children. I just keep the end goal in sight and it will all be worth it. I admire all the moms that have done this before me.

Life goes on

The other day I realized that life wasn't going to pause for me to mourn my mom. I still have to wake up everyday and function as if I didn't loose someone I really did care about. That I would soon do things that I hadn't done since she passed away. Like travel the last part of the road on my trip back from TX, or step foot in a church. Over the past few months I have been wondering if it would have been easier if I hadn't pushed her out of my life and spent the last part of hers with her, or is it better that I wasn't close to her. All I know is it hurts and I have never felt this kind of hurt before.