My calender said....

Nothing can bring you peace but yourself.....Okay so I am one of those people who rips off the date on their calander to find a new saying each day. I just find it boring to see the same picture every day for a month that would just make me know even more that I sit in the same spot 5 days out of the week and watch life happen out the window. Any how back to the saying I have today. Okay so for any one who has read my blog before knows that I started going to therapy to talk about the adoption and everything else in life, well one of the things I hate about it is that it brings up old ghost from the past. I am the type of person who if something I don't care to remember happens I vent for a day or so and then I bury it in the back of my mind to forever be forgotten. But as therapist think we don't really ever for get about it. So when I read todays sayign it made me stop and think maybe just maybe if I talk openly about things that have happened instead of trying to bury them all the time in hopes it will just go away that I may just find peace. Because as much as I hate to admit that part of me most likely is harboring anger towards the person whom I think wronged me for what ever reason. So how many times have we found our selves just going over and over something in our mind until we think we can't possably think of another out come from it. So many times I know my self that I look back on the what if's and wonder what could I have done. I could just worry my self sick with those and somehow I am unable to stop. So I guess my question to my self is am I truely the one that is stopping my self from having peace?