An Amazing Gift

Tonight when I got home there was a note from the post man saying they tried to deliver a package and I wasn't home so it was at the office. I walked up not knowing what it was..... and once I got there I figured out it was the box from my son and his parents. Well I couldn't wait to get home because A had informed me that there were pictures in the box. Sure enough there were and OH MY WHAT AN AMAZING LITTLE BOY! His smile just melted my heart and made me smile my self. She had included some from when they went to the pumpkin patch and of him in his Halloween costume, and the ones of him on his big boy bike. In each there was a smile worth a million words. I looked at him in disbelief of how big he has gotten. He has hair and lots of it and its in curls. Though his smiles I see how happy he is. I am grateful for the amazing gift of Pictures.

If you had it to do all over again would you pick the same parents?

If or even if I didn't know what I know now about my sons parents I would with out a doubt pick them again to be his parents. They are meant to be Jaodn's mom and dad. Plus the joy I saw on their faces when he arrived in to the world was priceless. Plus they include me in in the important parts of his life and I never feel as if I am not part of it. They are also amazing with my other son who loves when we visit. They are Christians which is very important. Most of all his mom has become a close friend of mine. When something great happens she is one of the first people I want to call. His dad is quiet like me, you see some times I just don't know what to say when people are around. They have great smiles. Plus they match......meaning he looks like them a lot. To me it would be odd if he didn't look like his parents. They were exactly what I wanted in parents. You know they say you don't get to choose your parents.... well I picked his and they are great.

Two Visits

I decided last summer I would like to have two visits instead of four a year. I figured it would be better for everyone. But as I sit here this month I remember last year and the visit I had with Jadon. It was the first one post his placement. I remember being so nervous and not knowing what to wear. I shopped all day to find matching shirts in two different sizes. So when the boys had their pictures done they would match. I am thankful that my sons mom lets the boys have their pictures taken together. I remember walking in and he was a sleep on the bed, and I wanted him to be up. It didn't take long to help him along with that. Wow did he change in just that short amount of time. He looked like this little person. I remember how he stared at me as if he knew me from some where. I like that about him no matter how long its been since he saw me last he always gives me the look as if he knows me even if it takes him a minute.

At the same time I sit and wonder what it will be like when I see him again in March. It will be six months then since I saw him last. I know when I talk with his mom on the phone he is always chatty in the back ground which can cause me to be spacey in my conversation. So I know he will be chatty and I get excited. Well by then he will also be walking. Scary!!!!!!!!! Which means he is no longer this baby that I laid in his parents arms and exited. I also wonder about how tall he will be. Will he give me that same look or will he cling to his parents in fear of me. I know what ever it is it will be great.

This is why I think two visits are good. Well, they need time to be a family and learn what works and what doesn't. Second visits are super emotional no matter how much you think that you are prepared for them. Third Life happens and we all get wrapped up in our own. I am glad we are able to communicate other ways in the mean time though. Fourth I don't worry about if he is in good hand or not because I know he is. Plus there are huge changes to look forward to and if it doesn't work we can look at it later.