Visit home

For most of my teenage years I could wait to get as far away from the town I grew up in, and I didn't care if I ever went back. Well, as an adult I realized that sometimes you just need to go home and regroup your thoughts and visit people who are familiar to you. So last month I made the flight home with two kids in tow to visit our family. Who most I don't speak to. But my grandma is there and I love seeing her, and remembering what it was like to be a kid and go to her house. My heart aches at times as I want my kids to know that feeling and they won't as we live thousands of miles away. After an all night flight we finally got our rental car and made the two hour drive to my grandma's house. It was a great feeling to wrap my arms around her and hug her, and feel her arms around me. Long needed I tell ya. This was the woman who took care of me when my mom couldn't over the years for what ever the reason. I took tons of pictures of her and the kids as I have no idea when we will see her again. Plus she will never come out to the west to see where we live as she doesn't travel that far. I also got to see my aunts and uncles and cousins. It was great for the most part, then you have the few people who assume that you will spend every minute of your vacation with you and when you don't they just can't understand why. Really all I wanted to do was relax, sleep in and do what ever I wanted for a week, with out a house to clean. We stayed in a cabin that only had power by a generator and it was great just like camping (we showered at my aunts). The kids played bad mitten, and caught tad poles and frogs and fed a baby pig. All while enjoying time with family they don't see much. I also remembered on my trip back to my house why I live so far away and only visit occasionaly, which is I can't stand half the people back there as they are selfish. I also want my kids to know that there is more out there past the edge of town, and I want them to dream big. I want my kids to be determined to make a great life for them selves and break the cycle that our family has done for years. But I would give anything to be able to sit on my grandma's porch and have a cup of coffee with her right now.