Do yolu ever wake up and wish you hadn't

When you wake up in the morning do you ever find your self wishing that you could close your eyes to not wake up. You know that everyday you do the same thing and nothing changes, but you keep going not ever knowing why. I know God has a plan for all of us but sometimes its easy to loose sight of it. Sometimes life just keeps kicking you no matter how many times you think you will get ahead life has this funny way of kicking you 10 feet back. I see other people who are so happy and I have no idea what I am doing so wrong that I can't seem to get that way my self. I am beginning to believe happiness is for other people. I have realized that people are not always what them seem at first and I for one am not a good judge of Charter. I realize I will have my heart broken over and over, and I will break some ones heart not meaning to. I also know I am just burnt out. I am sick of trying to be responsible all the time. I but yet it always seems to get in the way of the things that matter in life. I know I will work through this as I always do, but when will it ever get to the point ten steps back doesn't feel so bad?