Wednesday, October 17, 2007
My Visit to the PICC Center
After reading the article in the paper I felt the need to do something. Well, babies always need diapers. I went to this value store that has things stores can't sell and bought up some diapers. I pulled up in the parking lot and through the window you could see a nursery I just sat there thinking to my self if I really wanted to do this. What if I saw a baby? What if the people were not nice? I grabbed my bag and opened my door and walked up to the door and rang the door bell and waited. Finally a lady beeped out and ask what I needed. I told her her I brought some diapers. A few minutes passed and finally this lady came through the door. I took one look at her and realized she was the lady who started the center. I wanted to just hug her, but i didn't, we made small chat and she went her way and told me the lady at the counter could help me. I was so over whelmed with emotions that I sounded stupid as I talked to them both. I wanted to sign up to volunteer but the only class is on a Thursday when I am sitting at my desk job. So there goes that chance. Over all it was a good experience though and I know what a great thing she is doing, but yet I feel this need to write her a letter, and I may just do that.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
PICC
Yesterday I had to get a news paper for my office, and right on the first page was this amazing article about a woman who had become a foster mom at age 22, it went on to tell about how she had rarely been with out a baby and she has since retired from being a foster mom but she is the co founder of a place called Kent’s Pediatric Interim Care Center. I was so moved by the article that I called them and ask what I could do. I am attaching the link and the article. I hope it touches your hearts as much as it did mine. I am going to go through my oldest sons baby things and things I know he will never use I am going to donate, and plus other things. You may want to grab a tissue. Sometimes it takes one small step to change the life of many.
http://kentreporter.com/jumpstory.html?story=news1&pubdate=10/10/2007 Thats where I got the article from.
http://www.picc.net/ This is the web site for PICC
Enjoy reading:
She’s a mom to so many by Daniel Mooney Barbara Drennen sounds confident when she calls herself a mother, and she has the history to back it up.
In addition to bearing two of her own children, the 64-year-old has adopted three and cared for countless others over the years, all from the time they were newborns.
“I started fostering at the age of 22, and I just gave up my license two years ago,” Drennen said. “It was pretty emotional for me. All those years, I only went one week without a baby.”
Her fostering days may be over, but as co-founder and executive director of Kent’s Pediatric Interim Care Center, Drennen won’t have to go without a baby anytime soon. She wouldn’t have it any other way, and that longtime passion for the care of newborns who need it most was recognized this year, when she won the 2007 Stand on a Better World Local Award.
The award, sponsored by New Jersey flooring company Mannington, recognizes three women who have made a significant impact locally, nationally or globally. Drennen won the local award for developing her unique center, called PICC for short, which provides unmatched care for drug-exposed infants from across the state.
“I was honored,” Drennen said. “To receive an award like this is very humbling.”
The idea for the center began when Drennen, a longtime Kent resident, was busy fostering babies in the 1980s. She began to notice what was then becoming a widespread epidemic in the U.S. — the use of cocaine, often by pregnant mothers. The result of the drug use was premature, addicted newborns, many of which came to Drennen’s door.
“I had been a foster parent for many years, and the babies began to change,” she said. “They became very much more difficult to manage, so I decided to do something about it.”
Partnering with fellow Kent caregiver Barbara Richards, Drennen consulted with physicians and academics to learn and develop therapeutic techniques for guiding the infants through the painful period of withdrawal. “The Two Barbs,” as they were called, began providing the care in their homes, and before long, hospitals were prompting them to design a center for the valuable service.
Drennen and Richards formed PICC in Kent in October 1990.
“It’s been almost exactly 17 years now,” Drennen said. “We had no idea of the depth of the program. We knew what we wanted to do with the babies, but we didn’t know how far-reaching this was going to be.”
PICC became the first full-time newborn nursery specializing in bringing drug-addicted infants through withdrawal. It has yet to be replicated, Drennen said, though many have used the center as a model.
Richards retired in 2000, but Drennen continues to lead the PICC as executive director. Over the last 17 years, she and her staff have led more than 1,900 drug-exposed newborns through their first weeks. She has trained hundreds of caregivers, medical personnel and others in the techniques of diagnosing and handling drug-exposed infants.
PICC moved to a new facility in 2006, located at 328 Fourth Ave. S. in Kent. The two doctors, two nurses, aides and volunteers at the center now can handle about 13 babies at a time, placing them on a level of morphine that mimics their level of addiction and then slowly decreasing that level until they are no longer dependent.
“I have a staff like no other,” Drennen said. “They share my passion for the babies.”
The Legislature recently increased funding for the center, allowing for 17 infant beds.
Drennen has been a valuable resource to the public, medical community and the government on the importance of educating women about the effects of drugs on newborns, even helping to pass legislation to require reporting of newborns testing positive for illicit drugs to Child Protective Services.
And she doesn’t plan on stopping anytime soon.
“People always ask me when I’ll retire, and I always say 10 years,” she said. “But I’ve been saying that forever, and I’m still saying it. I don’t think there’s any place I’d rather be than here.”
Drennen was selected for the Stand on a Better World Award by a panel of judges, including world-famous athlete Billie Jean King, Emmy award-winning “20/20” correspondent Deborah Roberts and 2006 Stand on a Better World recipient Olga Murray. Drennen will be honored at an awards ceremony Nov. 15 in Wilmington, Del., where one of the three recipients will be chosen as the grand-prize winner, receiving $25,000 to be donated to her chosen charity. The other two winners will receive $10,000 to be given to their chosen charities.
Contact Daniel Mooney at 253-437-6012 or dmooney@reporternewspapers.com.
In addition to bearing two of her own children, the 64-year-old has adopted three and cared for countless others over the years, all from the time they were newborns.
“I started fostering at the age of 22, and I just gave up my license two years ago,” Drennen said. “It was pretty emotional for me. All those years, I only went one week without a baby.”
Her fostering days may be over, but as co-founder and executive director of Kent’s Pediatric Interim Care Center, Drennen won’t have to go without a baby anytime soon. She wouldn’t have it any other way, and that longtime passion for the care of newborns who need it most was recognized this year, when she won the 2007 Stand on a Better World Local Award.
The award, sponsored by New Jersey flooring company Mannington, recognizes three women who have made a significant impact locally, nationally or globally. Drennen won the local award for developing her unique center, called PICC for short, which provides unmatched care for drug-exposed infants from across the state.
“I was honored,” Drennen said. “To receive an award like this is very humbling.”
The idea for the center began when Drennen, a longtime Kent resident, was busy fostering babies in the 1980s. She began to notice what was then becoming a widespread epidemic in the U.S. — the use of cocaine, often by pregnant mothers. The result of the drug use was premature, addicted newborns, many of which came to Drennen’s door.
“I had been a foster parent for many years, and the babies began to change,” she said. “They became very much more difficult to manage, so I decided to do something about it.”
Partnering with fellow Kent caregiver Barbara Richards, Drennen consulted with physicians and academics to learn and develop therapeutic techniques for guiding the infants through the painful period of withdrawal. “The Two Barbs,” as they were called, began providing the care in their homes, and before long, hospitals were prompting them to design a center for the valuable service.
Drennen and Richards formed PICC in Kent in October 1990.
“It’s been almost exactly 17 years now,” Drennen said. “We had no idea of the depth of the program. We knew what we wanted to do with the babies, but we didn’t know how far-reaching this was going to be.”
PICC became the first full-time newborn nursery specializing in bringing drug-addicted infants through withdrawal. It has yet to be replicated, Drennen said, though many have used the center as a model.
Richards retired in 2000, but Drennen continues to lead the PICC as executive director. Over the last 17 years, she and her staff have led more than 1,900 drug-exposed newborns through their first weeks. She has trained hundreds of caregivers, medical personnel and others in the techniques of diagnosing and handling drug-exposed infants.
PICC moved to a new facility in 2006, located at 328 Fourth Ave. S. in Kent. The two doctors, two nurses, aides and volunteers at the center now can handle about 13 babies at a time, placing them on a level of morphine that mimics their level of addiction and then slowly decreasing that level until they are no longer dependent.
“I have a staff like no other,” Drennen said. “They share my passion for the babies.”
The Legislature recently increased funding for the center, allowing for 17 infant beds.
Drennen has been a valuable resource to the public, medical community and the government on the importance of educating women about the effects of drugs on newborns, even helping to pass legislation to require reporting of newborns testing positive for illicit drugs to Child Protective Services.
And she doesn’t plan on stopping anytime soon.
“People always ask me when I’ll retire, and I always say 10 years,” she said. “But I’ve been saying that forever, and I’m still saying it. I don’t think there’s any place I’d rather be than here.”
Drennen was selected for the Stand on a Better World Award by a panel of judges, including world-famous athlete Billie Jean King, Emmy award-winning “20/20” correspondent Deborah Roberts and 2006 Stand on a Better World recipient Olga Murray. Drennen will be honored at an awards ceremony Nov. 15 in Wilmington, Del., where one of the three recipients will be chosen as the grand-prize winner, receiving $25,000 to be donated to her chosen charity. The other two winners will receive $10,000 to be given to their chosen charities.
Contact Daniel Mooney at 253-437-6012 or dmooney@reporternewspapers.com. -->
http://kentreporter.com/jumpstory.html?story=news1&pubdate=10/10/2007 Thats where I got the article from.
http://www.picc.net/ This is the web site for PICC
Enjoy reading:
She’s a mom to so many by Daniel Mooney Barbara Drennen sounds confident when she calls herself a mother, and she has the history to back it up.
In addition to bearing two of her own children, the 64-year-old has adopted three and cared for countless others over the years, all from the time they were newborns.
“I started fostering at the age of 22, and I just gave up my license two years ago,” Drennen said. “It was pretty emotional for me. All those years, I only went one week without a baby.”
Her fostering days may be over, but as co-founder and executive director of Kent’s Pediatric Interim Care Center, Drennen won’t have to go without a baby anytime soon. She wouldn’t have it any other way, and that longtime passion for the care of newborns who need it most was recognized this year, when she won the 2007 Stand on a Better World Local Award.
The award, sponsored by New Jersey flooring company Mannington, recognizes three women who have made a significant impact locally, nationally or globally. Drennen won the local award for developing her unique center, called PICC for short, which provides unmatched care for drug-exposed infants from across the state.
“I was honored,” Drennen said. “To receive an award like this is very humbling.”
The idea for the center began when Drennen, a longtime Kent resident, was busy fostering babies in the 1980s. She began to notice what was then becoming a widespread epidemic in the U.S. — the use of cocaine, often by pregnant mothers. The result of the drug use was premature, addicted newborns, many of which came to Drennen’s door.
“I had been a foster parent for many years, and the babies began to change,” she said. “They became very much more difficult to manage, so I decided to do something about it.”
Partnering with fellow Kent caregiver Barbara Richards, Drennen consulted with physicians and academics to learn and develop therapeutic techniques for guiding the infants through the painful period of withdrawal. “The Two Barbs,” as they were called, began providing the care in their homes, and before long, hospitals were prompting them to design a center for the valuable service.
Drennen and Richards formed PICC in Kent in October 1990.
“It’s been almost exactly 17 years now,” Drennen said. “We had no idea of the depth of the program. We knew what we wanted to do with the babies, but we didn’t know how far-reaching this was going to be.”
PICC became the first full-time newborn nursery specializing in bringing drug-addicted infants through withdrawal. It has yet to be replicated, Drennen said, though many have used the center as a model.
Richards retired in 2000, but Drennen continues to lead the PICC as executive director. Over the last 17 years, she and her staff have led more than 1,900 drug-exposed newborns through their first weeks. She has trained hundreds of caregivers, medical personnel and others in the techniques of diagnosing and handling drug-exposed infants.
PICC moved to a new facility in 2006, located at 328 Fourth Ave. S. in Kent. The two doctors, two nurses, aides and volunteers at the center now can handle about 13 babies at a time, placing them on a level of morphine that mimics their level of addiction and then slowly decreasing that level until they are no longer dependent.
“I have a staff like no other,” Drennen said. “They share my passion for the babies.”
The Legislature recently increased funding for the center, allowing for 17 infant beds.
Drennen has been a valuable resource to the public, medical community and the government on the importance of educating women about the effects of drugs on newborns, even helping to pass legislation to require reporting of newborns testing positive for illicit drugs to Child Protective Services.
And she doesn’t plan on stopping anytime soon.
“People always ask me when I’ll retire, and I always say 10 years,” she said. “But I’ve been saying that forever, and I’m still saying it. I don’t think there’s any place I’d rather be than here.”
Drennen was selected for the Stand on a Better World Award by a panel of judges, including world-famous athlete Billie Jean King, Emmy award-winning “20/20” correspondent Deborah Roberts and 2006 Stand on a Better World recipient Olga Murray. Drennen will be honored at an awards ceremony Nov. 15 in Wilmington, Del., where one of the three recipients will be chosen as the grand-prize winner, receiving $25,000 to be donated to her chosen charity. The other two winners will receive $10,000 to be given to their chosen charities.
Contact Daniel Mooney at 253-437-6012 or dmooney@reporternewspapers.com.
In addition to bearing two of her own children, the 64-year-old has adopted three and cared for countless others over the years, all from the time they were newborns.
“I started fostering at the age of 22, and I just gave up my license two years ago,” Drennen said. “It was pretty emotional for me. All those years, I only went one week without a baby.”
Her fostering days may be over, but as co-founder and executive director of Kent’s Pediatric Interim Care Center, Drennen won’t have to go without a baby anytime soon. She wouldn’t have it any other way, and that longtime passion for the care of newborns who need it most was recognized this year, when she won the 2007 Stand on a Better World Local Award.
The award, sponsored by New Jersey flooring company Mannington, recognizes three women who have made a significant impact locally, nationally or globally. Drennen won the local award for developing her unique center, called PICC for short, which provides unmatched care for drug-exposed infants from across the state.
“I was honored,” Drennen said. “To receive an award like this is very humbling.”
The idea for the center began when Drennen, a longtime Kent resident, was busy fostering babies in the 1980s. She began to notice what was then becoming a widespread epidemic in the U.S. — the use of cocaine, often by pregnant mothers. The result of the drug use was premature, addicted newborns, many of which came to Drennen’s door.
“I had been a foster parent for many years, and the babies began to change,” she said. “They became very much more difficult to manage, so I decided to do something about it.”
Partnering with fellow Kent caregiver Barbara Richards, Drennen consulted with physicians and academics to learn and develop therapeutic techniques for guiding the infants through the painful period of withdrawal. “The Two Barbs,” as they were called, began providing the care in their homes, and before long, hospitals were prompting them to design a center for the valuable service.
Drennen and Richards formed PICC in Kent in October 1990.
“It’s been almost exactly 17 years now,” Drennen said. “We had no idea of the depth of the program. We knew what we wanted to do with the babies, but we didn’t know how far-reaching this was going to be.”
PICC became the first full-time newborn nursery specializing in bringing drug-addicted infants through withdrawal. It has yet to be replicated, Drennen said, though many have used the center as a model.
Richards retired in 2000, but Drennen continues to lead the PICC as executive director. Over the last 17 years, she and her staff have led more than 1,900 drug-exposed newborns through their first weeks. She has trained hundreds of caregivers, medical personnel and others in the techniques of diagnosing and handling drug-exposed infants.
PICC moved to a new facility in 2006, located at 328 Fourth Ave. S. in Kent. The two doctors, two nurses, aides and volunteers at the center now can handle about 13 babies at a time, placing them on a level of morphine that mimics their level of addiction and then slowly decreasing that level until they are no longer dependent.
“I have a staff like no other,” Drennen said. “They share my passion for the babies.”
The Legislature recently increased funding for the center, allowing for 17 infant beds.
Drennen has been a valuable resource to the public, medical community and the government on the importance of educating women about the effects of drugs on newborns, even helping to pass legislation to require reporting of newborns testing positive for illicit drugs to Child Protective Services.
And she doesn’t plan on stopping anytime soon.
“People always ask me when I’ll retire, and I always say 10 years,” she said. “But I’ve been saying that forever, and I’m still saying it. I don’t think there’s any place I’d rather be than here.”
Drennen was selected for the Stand on a Better World Award by a panel of judges, including world-famous athlete Billie Jean King, Emmy award-winning “20/20” correspondent Deborah Roberts and 2006 Stand on a Better World recipient Olga Murray. Drennen will be honored at an awards ceremony Nov. 15 in Wilmington, Del., where one of the three recipients will be chosen as the grand-prize winner, receiving $25,000 to be donated to her chosen charity. The other two winners will receive $10,000 to be given to their chosen charities.
Contact Daniel Mooney at 253-437-6012 or dmooney@reporternewspapers.com. -->
Stem Cell Research
Okay so I have to write a paper for my child development class and I am in need of some help on this. The topic when is a life a life? Where I have to also discuss if I am okay with stem cell research. I am pretty sure I am against it for a few reasons. But I tried to look up on line the first few days of development and there isn't much out there.
What I am asking is if you could just write your views on this and I will see if I can make since of all of this in my head for my paper.
Thanks for your help.
What I am asking is if you could just write your views on this and I will see if I can make since of all of this in my head for my paper.
Thanks for your help.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
True Friends
I use to think that a true friend was some one that you got together with once in a while and the person whom you told everything to. I also thought htat this person would be there for the long ride. Boy was I slapped in the face this past year with finding out who my true friends were.
H and I did everything together, there wasn't much time that we weren't doing something together. When we were hanging out we were on the phone just talking. She was the person I went to with everything. Then shortly after I got pregnant her husband got new orders to relocate to another country. I thought that the distance wouldn't be a problem with our friendship. It took a while for her phone service to get on and it cost alot to call her. So I thought emails or snail mail would keep us connected. But in the mean time life happened and some how we drifted apart. I couldn't even tell you the last time I talked to her, I mean really talked to her and caught up on life. I miss the days of her being part of my life.
K and I had the summer of a life time. The summer when I was trying yo find my place and who I was. It was a blast. Then she met a guy and I went mine. After a huge blow up we barely talked. After I found out I was pregnant I had lots of time to think about mending things in my past so I figure why not. I went to her work and we talked during a lunch, you could feel the tention. But our frenship started to pick up again. In time I saw that she hadn't changed. She drank more than ever and other choices in her life were ones I wasn't sure I wanted to be a part of because I had changed alot in my life. I am not saying that I woke up one morning and became this great person. But with time I became a good person. I did things I could be proud of. So today she sends me a message saying "whatever, you never want to do anything any more", to be honest I am not sure I do.
You maybe wondering where I am going with this. Well those are two people who mean something to me and not even one of them called me to see how I was holding up on my sons first birthday. Not even an email to say they were there if I needed them.
You know who did talk to me that week was S and she was a great shoulder to lean on and I hope I can be there for her. Thank you S for all that you have said to me and thank you for being there. It has meant a lot to me.
Have you looked at who your true friends are lately?
H and I did everything together, there wasn't much time that we weren't doing something together. When we were hanging out we were on the phone just talking. She was the person I went to with everything. Then shortly after I got pregnant her husband got new orders to relocate to another country. I thought that the distance wouldn't be a problem with our friendship. It took a while for her phone service to get on and it cost alot to call her. So I thought emails or snail mail would keep us connected. But in the mean time life happened and some how we drifted apart. I couldn't even tell you the last time I talked to her, I mean really talked to her and caught up on life. I miss the days of her being part of my life.
K and I had the summer of a life time. The summer when I was trying yo find my place and who I was. It was a blast. Then she met a guy and I went mine. After a huge blow up we barely talked. After I found out I was pregnant I had lots of time to think about mending things in my past so I figure why not. I went to her work and we talked during a lunch, you could feel the tention. But our frenship started to pick up again. In time I saw that she hadn't changed. She drank more than ever and other choices in her life were ones I wasn't sure I wanted to be a part of because I had changed alot in my life. I am not saying that I woke up one morning and became this great person. But with time I became a good person. I did things I could be proud of. So today she sends me a message saying "whatever, you never want to do anything any more", to be honest I am not sure I do.
You maybe wondering where I am going with this. Well those are two people who mean something to me and not even one of them called me to see how I was holding up on my sons first birthday. Not even an email to say they were there if I needed them.
You know who did talk to me that week was S and she was a great shoulder to lean on and I hope I can be there for her. Thank you S for all that you have said to me and thank you for being there. It has meant a lot to me.
Have you looked at who your true friends are lately?
Sunday, September 16, 2007
MOM
Okay so before I go to a visit I prepare my self for the changes that have happened since last time I visited with him. So that I can mentally beokay with where he is and so it won't be super emotional at the time of the visit. Before the last visit we had talked about what he was doing such as crawling and pulling him self up and talking. So with knowing he was talking I don't know why I was so surprised that he could say mom mom mom. I looked at him and had to step in to the bath room to regroup my self. I mean I knew he could talk I guess I just forgot that he would of course what to say mom mom mom. Also they were not tears of just sadness but tears of joy because that showed just how much he cared for his mom. The part that I knew would heart the heart one day was knowing he would call mom and not me. I guess it just caught me off guard. But I am so happy for her to have the title as mom, which wasa dream come true for her. When he is old enough he will be able to say Julie and it will bring a tear to my eye too.
1ST Bithday party and visit
Yesterday I was honored to be present at Jadons 1st birthday party. When I arrived he had just woken up from a nap and just looked at me trying to place where he knew me from and he wasn't sure if he wanted to leave his moms arms yet or not. Which was okay as I understood that from prior mothering exprience. With in a few minutes I was ready to try to hold him, and to my surprise he came right to me, but he was sure to look and make sure his mom was still close. I then got to seed him his lunch. He sat there in his chair and when he was ready for another bite his little mouth would just pop open and he would give me this look like your not giving me food fast enough. But in between bites I would get the most presious smile in the world. As he ate he would look behind me as thats was where Jacob his big brother was sitting, and he wanted to know what he was doing. I love holding him as much as I can during my visits. We then played on the floor, as his mom got things ready for his party to begin.
On this visit I was also honored to get to meet other people who play a role in his life. He has two great sets of grandparents who love him so much. Another benifit if this was seeing how much he loved each of them back and being included in that part of his life.
He wasn't to sure about the sound of the paper when he opened his gifts but he liked what was in the inside once the paper was gone. Also when it came time for cake he didn't mind putting his hands in it but he wanted nothing to do with eating it. Later he enjoyed some of his moms chocolate cake which he couldn't seem to get enough of. After he got all messy I had the honor of giving him his clean up bath.
In bath time I was able to capture some smiles on my camera. This was the first bath I had given him since his very first bath ever which I had given him in the hospital a year before. This time he was able to sit up all by him self and splash in the water and play with the new bath toys I had given him as a birthday gift.
We played some more through out the after noon and then he got super sleepy so I attempted to put him down for a nap. I wanted to try and rock him to sleep as it gives me some alone time with him during the visit. So we took Tad bit and went in to try and nap. Well his super excited to see him big brother didn't want to get out of the room and of course Jadon wanted nothing more than to stay up and play with him. So once I was able to get him out of the room he started to suck his thumb and then layed his head on my shoulder. Then he would hear some one in the hall way and look around. Then he would look at me and just grin and grin. As we were in there it was almost as if he knew how much I needed those smiles. He was also full of giggles which he shared with me. Then in would come Jacob trying to see what was going on. He just became more and more tired. So finally his mom brought in one last bottle for him. As I held him and he drifted off to sleep I fed him his last bottle. Which was nice because I had fed him his first bottle ever and his last once. Which is a memory I will cherish forever. I was able to rock him to sleep which I guess he usually doesn't let any one do, but I am sure he knew how much I needed to feel him asleep on my chest
I believe every time he looks at me with those big blue eyes he knows what happened and almost as if he understands. I know later I will have to answer any questions he may have. It was agreat visit. I look forward to seeing him on the next one. In the mean time I will enjoy all the picture I took and the ones I will get along the way.
On this visit I was also honored to get to meet other people who play a role in his life. He has two great sets of grandparents who love him so much. Another benifit if this was seeing how much he loved each of them back and being included in that part of his life.
He wasn't to sure about the sound of the paper when he opened his gifts but he liked what was in the inside once the paper was gone. Also when it came time for cake he didn't mind putting his hands in it but he wanted nothing to do with eating it. Later he enjoyed some of his moms chocolate cake which he couldn't seem to get enough of. After he got all messy I had the honor of giving him his clean up bath.
In bath time I was able to capture some smiles on my camera. This was the first bath I had given him since his very first bath ever which I had given him in the hospital a year before. This time he was able to sit up all by him self and splash in the water and play with the new bath toys I had given him as a birthday gift.
We played some more through out the after noon and then he got super sleepy so I attempted to put him down for a nap. I wanted to try and rock him to sleep as it gives me some alone time with him during the visit. So we took Tad bit and went in to try and nap. Well his super excited to see him big brother didn't want to get out of the room and of course Jadon wanted nothing more than to stay up and play with him. So once I was able to get him out of the room he started to suck his thumb and then layed his head on my shoulder. Then he would hear some one in the hall way and look around. Then he would look at me and just grin and grin. As we were in there it was almost as if he knew how much I needed those smiles. He was also full of giggles which he shared with me. Then in would come Jacob trying to see what was going on. He just became more and more tired. So finally his mom brought in one last bottle for him. As I held him and he drifted off to sleep I fed him his last bottle. Which was nice because I had fed him his first bottle ever and his last once. Which is a memory I will cherish forever. I was able to rock him to sleep which I guess he usually doesn't let any one do, but I am sure he knew how much I needed to feel him asleep on my chest
I believe every time he looks at me with those big blue eyes he knows what happened and almost as if he understands. I know later I will have to answer any questions he may have. It was agreat visit. I look forward to seeing him on the next one. In the mean time I will enjoy all the picture I took and the ones I will get along the way.
Happy 1st Birthday
Last year on September 12th the most amazing baby entered the world, and not knowing that the following events would change the course of his life forever. As he came out I saw the joy on his new parents face and I knew what I was doing was right so if I had any doubt up to that point it was gone. The nurse laid him on my chest and the tears filled my eyes ones of joy not ones of sadness I was so excited to finally bemeeting him.
Now it has been one year and its hard to believe. With each visit he gets bigger and bigger and starts to become his own person. The first birthday was hard for me because the events of his birth even though they were good played over and over in my mind. I think everything I looked at had some way of reminding me of him and how we spent the first few days of his life together, and prepared to go our seperate ways. To me its hard I guess to see him as a toddler when in my mind he is still this tiny baby even though I have pictures and I have seen him in person to make that not true.
I made it though as will the other moms who have went through this before me and the ones to come after me. But I am greatful for the moms who are goign though this that I have the chance to become friends with.
Now it has been one year and its hard to believe. With each visit he gets bigger and bigger and starts to become his own person. The first birthday was hard for me because the events of his birth even though they were good played over and over in my mind. I think everything I looked at had some way of reminding me of him and how we spent the first few days of his life together, and prepared to go our seperate ways. To me its hard I guess to see him as a toddler when in my mind he is still this tiny baby even though I have pictures and I have seen him in person to make that not true.
I made it though as will the other moms who have went through this before me and the ones to come after me. But I am greatful for the moms who are goign though this that I have the chance to become friends with.
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