A New Year and a New Me!

As the New Year rings in I realize I too need a new approach to life. Over all the years that I have been here I have learned to conform to what was needed of me never really speaking up for what I want. In many cases I haven't taken the time to deal with emotions that have come with different situations in my life. I figured that many times it was and would be easier to force those emotions deep inside and never talk abotu them again. Now as an adult and a parent I see some of those situations coming back to bite me. Not that I would ever allow the people or those emotions to take over my life. Its the small things that I notice that scare me the most.
With the help of a very clsoe friend I will be able to do my own personal cleaning and healing. I plan on blogging about most of it. I think that by writing about the situations it will make it real and not just a hidden memory. Along with this I will be telling people that it is not okay to walk all over me that as hard core as I may seem I too have feelings that need to be respected. I am not ashamed of all the events there are a few that I am and I will admit that, but most of all I am a survivor which I will continue to be a survivor.